[Imc-lwg-general] conflict resolution within imc-uk confession&apologies

[Andrew]

appologies for the length of this mail but its taken 3 hours to write it so 
please read
 nb  wedensday group = london collective or whatever anyone wants to call it

 having to keep up with all the mails is preventing me and i know others who 
work on the site from doing constructive stuff within the imcuk network )
but have to read them so i know whats happening 
i want to see imc-uk surviving not torn apart by politics

and i feel very strongly that this is very destructive for us (us as in all 
who care about  the site named imc-uk and no particular group) and also feel 
that some of this is personal stuff  within some of the group which started 
imc-uk and now eminating from both sides pulling others into this fucked up 
situation which is now in a minority within the wedensday group (the rts 
members) and maybe a minority in lwg but i know little of rts and stuff that 
went on b4 i joined imc-uk and dont want to know really its the problems now 
im concerned with
 
When i joined the group i knew no one except Andy(who id met only 3 times). i 
turned up to the rfh and asked complete strangers if i could join their 
meeting(Andy turned up later) and i was welcomed very warmly and was shown 
what i could do to help within a week and given trust which was the most 
important thing
also i aint been well (fucked disc in my back) and the support ive got from 
people in the wedensday group has been increadble offers of - meals, monetry 
loans, lifts to meetings doctors etc and friendship, all from people who had 
only known me for 4 or 5 weeks

every or nearly every mail i read from lwg is an attack with ideas attached 
its not the ideas, which may be good or bad (everyone has both) its the way 
they have been put either forcefully or with extream pregiduce or this is 
impression they have given and also mails from the wedensday group
which in turn makes people angry, defensive and liabe to say or do things they 
might regret later  i think on both sides
 ( people get angry when they think somthing they think is percious to them is 
under attack ive always felt richard was just attacking imc-uk for whatever 
reason as didnt understand alot of the politics he talks of and still dont 
but i beleive he does have imc-uk interests at heart the same as i do)

in my case ive written some rude angry mails and i deleted richards feature
   yes     i admit it  
 i am  very  ashamed and embarased by it and did it out of anger and ignorance 
thinking it not right as the mainstream press had covered it pretty well 
 i hit the delete button in a reflex/angry thing and instantly realised id 
fucked up big time but didnt know how to reverse it at the time (now i know 
that if id hit the back button i could have corrected it i think)
 i did mean to mail the list but got kicked off the puta i was using (i was 
not at home) and then didn't get online till the next day by which time id 
got very embarased and scared of what the same people i discribed above would 
think of my betrail of trust and have been regreting it ever since
(this is not an excuse its an explaination there is no excuse)
so to everyone the wedensday group and Richard and lwg
 i am sorry and it makes me cringe every time i think of it


i dont know how to continue after that except
 why cant we work together 
(we all want imc-uk to go on(in whatever form ))
instead of fighting 
'war what is it good good for'
the people who would love to see projects like indymedia fail
thats all this infighting is good for
we are all guilty, its time to make peace, consessions from all, whatever the 
fuck it takes,
 imc-uk is worth more than this
 more than all of us put together
 and needs to grow otherwise it wont do that it says on the packet 
and it can grow so much     

PLEASE..................................
indymedia is SO important !
Andrew